Taken A Bit of A Hit!

There is so much that I want to do! I want to be happy, I want to be a good mom, I want to be successful, I want to have fun, I want to have time to myself, I want to feel safe! I don't want to have this feeling of panic and fatigue. I want to have a zest for life and energy to live it!! In 3 days over 4 weeks, I've gone from feeling like I was getting on top of it, to being near the bottom. I was already an anxious person feeling claustrophobic in my daily life as a stay at home mom. Now I feel like this "boy" who handed me a note that demanded money and said he had a gun has the upper hand. I have no control over the situation except to remove myself from the place where it happened. He did it 3 times to 3 of us. I'm know that I wasn't the only one victimized there, we all were, but since I am so completely in turmoil, I had to step away. Time and counseling, I don't know what else to give it?? Maybe I'll sleep better tonight after finally being able to get the thoughts out of my head.